I don't understand
I miss you, but not you.
I miss the way you made me happy,
The way you made me feel special.
You weren't a smooth talker,
But you knew what to say in your own awkward way.
And I liked that.
But it all ended so fast,
And I was left brokenhearted.
But you never knew that.
I hide the pain everyday with smiles,
Because what else was I to do?
Then I saw you with her,
And for a while you were happy.
So I got to thinking,
Why can't I be happy too?
Whenever I still thought of you,
Shivers still ran up my spine.
But my eyes no longer sparkled and shined.
No, they are dull and faded,
Looking to the ground and avoiding your hazel gaze.
Now I can left my drooped head
And meet your eyes.
I can laugh with you in the kitchen,
And wish you a good day.
But its not the same as before,
You're merely a friend.
And now I understand.
It wasn't you that I had missed,
It was the feeling of cloud nine
The rush of a simple meeting of the eyes or a smile.
What I missed was the knowledge
That I was held on a pedestal
in the heart of someone else.
Thank you for the memories.
It was a rush that I will never forget.